I will be so happy when Crown Jewel is over.

So wait…

All the former 205 Live guys who were up for the draft are on Raw… except Mustafa Ali?

WHY?!?

After that trainwreck of a Raw on Monday, and that indefensibly horrible ending to tonight’s Smackdown, Finn Balor is probably thanking his lucky stars that Hunter brought him back to NXT.

I’ve seen a lot of posts about the potential matches Finn can have now that he’s back on NXT - Cole, Ciampa, Gargano, Dream, Riddle, revisiting his matches from Japan with KUSHIDA, etc - but with the way the rosters are crossing over, we’re overlooking the ones he can now have with the guys from NXT UK.

- Balor vs Tyler Bate

- Balor vs WALTER (though that could happen on NXT)

- Balor vs Travis Banks

- Balor vs his old ICW running buddies like Wolfgang, Joe Coffey, & Noam Dar

- Balor vs Devlin II (maybe with a title on the line?)

And there’s also the new integration of the 205 Live roster, so guys like Drew Gulak, Humberto Carrillo, Akira Tozawa, Gentleman Jack Gallagher, etc.

The possibilities for Finn to have some amazing matches are near-endless right now, and I. Can’t. Wait.

A quick thought about Finn Balor:

His entire adult life, he’s been “Professional Wrestler Fergal Devitt/Prince Devitt/Finn Balor”. He’s always been focused on looking a certain way or acting a certain way to fit that mold since he was 18. Even when he was out with his shoulder injury, there was a camera crew following him around and he had to be ‘on’, even with his friends & family.

So now, for the first time in who knows how long, he’s taking a couple of months to just be Fergal Devitt.

He doesn’t have to worry about how he’s going to look on camera. He doesn’t have to worry about how any PR machine will spin his words or actions. He doesn’t have to think about storylines or characters or kayfabe. He’s relaxed, he’s happy and in love, and he’s living for himself.

When the time comes for him to return to the ring, I’ll be on the edge of my seat in anticipation watching Finn Balor climb back to the top of the mountain.

But for now I’m going to sit back, enjoy, and appreciate, the glimpse he’s giving us at Ferg.

What the Hell did the fans do to piss WWE off so badly that Finn Balor, Ricochet, AND Seth Rollins all lost their titles tonight?

I need to get settled so I can start over.

I’m starting to resign myself to the fact that maybe I’m just not ever meant to be truly happy in life. I don’t want to. But the way something always seems to pop up and tear me down every time I start getting close, it’s the only thing that makes sense at this point.

I don’t use this actively much anymore, and I do want to change that, but I just need somewhere to put this and I apologize. I think everything I’ve dealt with over the past three years finally built up to the tipping point, and this forced moving thing that just popped up was the final straw.

I’m just so tired of things going wrong, over and over, as soon as I finally start to get my feet under me from the last disaster. Can’t I enjoy at least a few months of stability for once?